Nearly the half-way through college, end of the year, beginning of real life

You know when there's people you can't talked to in like a mutha millennium and you're like "where the hell do we start?"...typically with the stuff that's most recent and then you gradually work your way into the past until the point of your LAAAST meeting with them. So I suppose that's also how we're gonna start, old friend (of no one who reads).

So I've started college, "cooooooooool! ain't that like where everyone gets drunk and laid?"
Not everyone...but its not false either. A lot of people do.

"It's normal for college boys and girls to get all hormonal and want to touch each all the times."
...so they say. yeah, you go to parties, you dance, you hook up you have fun and you move on with life. Making out, hugging, cuddling, hand holding are all considered normal things and indications of maybe is going out.

For someone like me, who had this HUGE personal bubble space and issues with touching people or even being remotely intimate with them in any way sends my "freak-the-fuck-out" meter straight through the ceiling. I figured I'd just not date, focus on making friends and being my ideal image of a cool and emotional guarded woman.

a ha...ha think again.

I happened to enroll in most love-friendly college of all of Redlands (perhaps almost all of California or the god damned world for that matters). Love-friendly doesn't even do it justice; it's a lot more like "LOVE! LOVE EVERYONE! LOVE WITH INTENSITY!" and where does that happen to be? the Johnston College of Integrative studies. Infamous naked fire pit dance ceremonies, leather-and-lace (also referred to as the S&M) party, Lust-yourself dance party, spontaneous make out sessions, orgy showers, cuddle puddles, games of dirty Jenga, and an entire holiday event called Kissmas dedicated to a night of making out with everyone present at the celebration. My constant exposure to such as above wore down my fear of these things to practically a nub, especially if its occurring as often as weekly or more.

I don't think its a bad thing, in fact I love this place more than anything. I just feel very...changed by it all. So now I can just go out and touch people right? ahahhaha. lame joke.

Me at leather&lace. I was chillin' on the couch and someone decided to catch me in what looked kinda like a pose. *shrug* eheh


us at fire pit, no one got naked that night, we all left early because we had HW to do. that's actually somewhat unusual for Johnston.

Other things? I got a hair cut, got sick twice this semester, it's finals week, it's almost Christmas break, Doris has a potential boyfriend candidate (ahu!hu!hu!hu!hu!) what a weird laugh, started accumulating a collection of drawings of tattooed and partially naked people, and not much other interesting things.

yes, finals week. You will eat cups and cups and cups of ramen and just place them on top of each other as you immediate jump back to that god-damned essay you were working on.

oh lookie, my drawing of a naked girl. I got very positive responses from my male audience, they like her very much. lolz...



Also I recently feel like I've started talking like a daft street punk. I'm afraid I'll soon sound like an incoherent mumbling crackhead. Not that I wasn't already sorta cracked out to begin with.

And finally, proof that my dad is a baller

Naruto Leech-People

goodness, we haven't posted anything in a good long time. Well I've been pretty busy getting down to my last college acceptances, last-minute scholarships, AP testings, etc. Of course, it's not nearly close to being over yet. There will be more stuff to do: projects, senior exhibitions, senior activities, more scholarships, housing registrations, you name it. Enough boring shizzle.

But seriously, I feel bad, since we're supposed to post regularly and I've fell so far behind after not posting for a few almost 3 months. :O can you Imagine that, If that was pregnancy, It'll be a full trimester. OK....aside from that. ah ha ha...Speaking of babies, there's two things I want to talk about.

First: For my service learning class, I am working on this presentation about CYBER-BULLY. that's right, mean kids. We're making a short little movie for it to go along with the power-point. As part of the movie,I photo-shopped a picture of my friend Jeanie for the "bullying." Its actually somehow...oddly cute. The reason this is related to babies is because pikachu is like the size of a year old child.

( ,,-_-,,'') *lol. By the way, she's a lovely girl, even as a Pikachu.
No wonder Ash doesn't have a girlfriend. LOL he has Pikachu.

Another thing about babies...My bro is almost two years old, but it turns out that the day I'm going to the summer bridge for my school is also his birthday. ): *sad*

he's so BIG for a kid that's not even two years old!

And back to Jeanie. She and I made a music video together. Its a cover of this random song to. Really it was supposed to be for my art project, it was shot and edited all in the time span of one day...and then presented the next. If it weren't for the fact that I'm mildly good at video editing, I would never have finished. (so was that line supposed to be modest or arrogant?)



She's a good singer. I'm thinking of making more music with her. :) By the way, I've always had the great desire to learn to play the drums. It sounds ridiculous, "pah little asian girl, dream on." But I WILL play it one day, and play it well. Just watch. I don't give up easily. >:D

Also a while back, Doris and I were going around and we happened to pass through Fam mart, where I got my prom dress and we saw numerous strippa shoes. :O some were soooo tall....we couldn't think of how you can possibly wear it unless it
a) went up to your crotch
b) you must have a very high crotch
c) you must be model sized
d) you must have tall legs...of a man.
lolll option D is too farfetched imo....well 90% farfetched. 10% is being openminded because why would you catch a man wearing these?

....or

they don't seem that tall but they DID come up to our hips. Do we just have short legs? I feel that my legs are actually pretty long. well, for a 5'1'' gnome.


THESE are the shoes that I bought that I want to wear for prom. 6 inches babey. :O

I was wearing my dress. <_<

but I want to learn how to wear heels. even outside of prom I might try these once in a while just for fun. Apparently it makes me taller...and not looking so much like 13 and more my age. (18) which I prefer. It always kicks my self-esteem in the gut when people instinctively assume I'm in middle school. *tear. MOST importantly, I feel tall, I have an obsession with feeling tall...because it gives me power. LOL I'm managing to walk in them actually :D soon....veddy soooon....I should just dance and do martial arts in them. (oy oy, thats probably over-doing it...)

And veddy soon......I shall return with some advices about how to approach a relationship without getting screwed (literally) and then dumped. oh what foul language we have here.
and nooo...I've never been in a relationship.... but I got it from this booklet they gave us in class "in preparation for college."

I found that I'm highhhh-ly asexual. meaning: I don't crave relationships nor do I really LOOK at people as potential mates...mostly...I see them as THEM and whatever then happens happens ...if it ever, EVER does/will. I've liked/like 2 people or so in my life time. (17 going on 18)

I'm also afraid of touching people...hugging...head pats...loving gestures...etc. My friend advised me on trying to learning to "touch people." leaning in a little more, getting used to being around people, not freaking out when I touch them briefly or not to become shocked or break out in small sweats from people becoming suddenly close to me or lean in to me. My friend says that you're supposed to feel HAPPY from hugs, not repulsed and frightened. LOL

Even though I'm good at looking people in the eye...I can't do it if I'm sitting close to a person. I get uneasy and intimidated. So I took advantage of when I get mentored/tutored/etc to look people in the eyes while they're talking to me (and sitting close). This sort of small training has helped. "smile", "look", "listen", "respond." And occasionally look away to give myself a break. I'm improving. :D
Any advices anyone? To cure me of this odd antisocial bit of myself. I've overcome not being able to express myself/ talk...now its probably one of the harder things...

Can you figure out who these things are? look at the hair styles.

If you can't figure it out click

Doris (8:44:31 PM):looks like a leech with a lllama or something
shes not wrong...

and this song is a MUST watch/listen.


It's pretty hard to find this version of the song unless its on youtube. You can find it else where but its not nearly as happy and bumpin. If you want it, tell me and I'll send it to you. ;)


So I'd be back with advices to girls for relationships and share some of my experiences with sexual harassment through the Internet. I'm sure that will be an interesting story so keep watch for new posts. :D

Ep. 4 (final)

The last and final episode to our Otto series. complete with my translation of the Shakespeare version (Othello) I must say that mine's is nowhere nearly as eloquent as Shakespeare and I have probably greatly reduced the beauty of the original play. ah well.

Enjoy. :)

1. Emilia Runs up to Otty (Othello) and is like "oh no!! cassio got into a fight! and is injured"

2. Otty: "he aint dead?"

3. Emilia: "....no...?" Otty: "dammit!" Emilia: "...ok..."

4. Dess(Desdemona) falls onto the floor and makes a noise. Emilia is like WTF IS THAT?! Otty: "i Dunno, dont ask me, hum hum"

5. Emilia runs into the chamber. Her mistress is dead. Emilia: WTF NOOOOO WHO DID THIS?"

6. Otty: "I dunno...don't ask me. hum hum"

7. Dess: "no one...did..." *dies Otty: "that woman is a natural born liar, she didnt even say that i killed her. see shes a liar through and through even in death"

8. Emilia: "wthhh??! shes not a liar! and she lied to protect you!" why yoo doo dat?!!

9. Otty: "she was cheatin me!"

10. Emilia: "wut?! no! who said?"

11. Othello: "Iago. he got proof" Emilia gets on his nerves by asking "Iago???!" about 3 times

12. Otty: "YES Iago how many times must i say it you stupid woman."

13. Emilia: "that d*ck he acted all innocent and gave "advices" when he was around us" *calls for help

14. people arrives. "wtf dude your wifes dead"

15. Otty: "yah, I did it" *explains everything again

16. Emilia: :"Iago you liar!!" and enters crazy-screaming-lady mode

17. Iago: "leave woman!" and attempts to threaten her. random onlookers are horrified.

18. Emilia: "oh Hells Naw!" and reveals all of Iago's tricks.

19. Othello: "WTF" and tries to attk Iago. he's is stopped. Iago takes the chance to kill Emilia and make a dash for it.

20. people chases after Iago. Emilia is dying "sorry for giving something as important as your handkerchief (given by Otty so its considered "important") and giving it to someone else. and dies

21. People return with Iago captured. Othello wounds Iago but not kill him so people can torture his traitorous a$$ later. Then he wails about his own drama and issues before he kills himself. in a more noble way than I make it seem.

22. End of story. Iago...may or may not regret it. I don't know.



and here is the bloopers. :D



if you ever want to read a better summary of Othello (cus mine's really suck) click here.

You can also read the full script if you want to. If that page won't load. Try these.
Act I
Act II
Act III
Act IV
Act V

Otto Ep. 3

Otto episode 3 is here! It is the most dramatic Episode of the series. :) and my ghetto summary of Othello.

1.Rody (Roderigo from Ep.1):" so...hows the plan going...how come I haven't hooked up with Dess(Desdemona) yet. ):"

2. Iago: "patience my man. in the meantime. i think that Dess might end up leaving for good with Otty(Othello) so we must break them up. and Cassio might be a potential rival once she and Othello break off. you gotta go kill Cassio."

3. Rody:"Ohsh*et really?" Okay.

4. Rody attempts to attack Cassio. cassio fights back and beats Rody up.

5. Iago: "rody you fool! youre not suppose to get beat up!" and attacks cassio from behind.

6. Cassio: "Nuuuu! my legs! help murder!"

7. Passerbys: "wtf? wassup?" Cassio: "my legs have been sliced off! I'm handicap for life!"

8. Iago comes into the scene and kills Rody before anyone can find out the plan. Rody: "you....#*(&(@#@Y&@!" and dies. Iago then accuses Bianca, (Cassio's ho) of plotting his murder.

9. meanwhile. Othello is in Dess's Chamber. "no...why you gotta do dis to me?! D:"

10. Dess is asleep. Then she wakes up. "wassup, wanna go to bed?"

11. Otty: "no"

12. Dess: "h'okay...so wassup"

13. Otto: "you're dead woman"

14. Dess: "wut?"

15. Otto: "you cheated on me with Cassio! you whore!!!"

16. Dess: "wth no!!!" and they have this big o' conflict. Otty tries to get her to confess that she did. but she didn't, so she can't say that she did. (ya know what I mean?)

17. Otty:"fine" *kills her

btw. no one is allowed to die in our version for English.

Otto Ep. 2!

In continuation of the "Otto" series. Here is episode 2! with my ghetto-fied summary of the play which it was based upon from original "Othello" written by William Shakespeare.

1. Cassio: Dess (Desdemona), can you help me??? I wanna redeem myself.

2. Dess: h'okay. I'll talk to Otty-dear (Othello) for you.

3. Cassio: "you are lord."

4. Dess: *sees Otty* "Hey hon' mind giving Cassio his job back"

5. Otty: "meh...i'll think about that later"

6. Dess:" h'okay." *leaves

7. Iago: *comtemplates* "Say Otty...do you think something suspicious is going on..."

8. Otty: "wut?" Iago: "nvm" Otty: "tell me!!!"

9. Iago: "ya reckon Dess might be humpin Cassio?" (saying shes cheating on Otty)

10. Otty: "wtf, no, don't bs me. ones mah bff and ones my honaybun"

11. Iago: *thinks "I need a plan two..."*

12. Otty's head starts hurting. Dess tries to comfort him and wipe his forehead with her handkerchief that was given to her by Otty. apparently its too small for his head. they leave the scene and she ends up dropping it unnoticed.

13. Emilia, her maid finds it and gives it to her hubby(Iago) who wanted her to steal it for him for a while. she thinks he just got some weird fantasy going on with Dess' handwipe.

14. Iago makes a copy of the handkerchief and leaves it in Cassio's room.

15. Cassio gives it to Bianca. this whore (literally) who is in love with him. "here you go hun' I found it in my room and though it was pretty so Imma give it to you. Imma man, I don't need a handkerchief, I can always wipe my forehead with my shirt so the world can see my abs"

16. Iago talks to Cassio sometimes later. Otty thinks they're talking about Dessie but really hes talkin about this whore (not in a mean way but literally) called Bianca that digs him and wanna marry him.

17. Since Otto is watching from afar he can't hear what they're talking about. Cassio says Bianca pulls him around. Otty thinks hes talking about Dess pulling Cassio into her chamber. yes, he got a skevy mind.

18. Bianca comes: "how can a random handkerchief appear in your room, it must belong to some other b*tch and you want to me take the evidence for you." Cassio has to chase after her

19. Otty sees and thinks "wtf, he must have got that from my wife! and now hes giving it to a random ho. how dare he!"

20. OTTO MAD! and Iago gleeful at how well his plot turned out. Iago is now given the task to kill Cassio. while Otty will "take care" of Dess.

21. Dun dun DUN.

Otto Ep. 1

I just made a short movie for English Class. Its called "Otto" based on Othello, a play written by Will' 'Spear. awesome dude. anyways Lemme do a ghetto summary of Othello.
I will tell the story of Othello in parts with the movie of Otto so that you will understand what did certain things happen in our movie.

Othello episode 1
1. Othello (military captain) gives Cassio ("handsome" bff of Otty) a nice military position.

2. Iago (who has more experience) is jealous of Cassio. "IAGO MAD!"

3. Roderigo is pissed at Otty for eloping with Desdemona (his crush)

4. Iago and Rody unite! and goes tell Dess's Daddy (Brabantio) in the middle of the night.

5. Branbantio is like "WTF who is it at this time." *sees Rody* "YOU, I told you to stop stalking Dess! now go away"

6. Iago: "something has been stolen from you!! *raves* ..."beast with two backs" refering to what two people look like while they're getting jiggy with it.

7. Brabantio : "wtf are you on dude"....but goes to check out his babygirls room anyways. and OHNOES his babygirl is gone! *wails* "call for help!" and runs to the Duke

8. Duke:*shock* "??!, just call and ask Otty man"

9. Otty arrives! Brabantio verbally attacks him. btw. they love shoving it in his face that hes black. Otty is like "no...we're in loveeee cus of my wonderful story telling skizzles"

10. Calls Dess in. Dess agrees. Brabantio dies of anger. (which i never found out until the end...)

11. Rody is left to feel depressed, he mopes, and moans and throws a tantrum. "I wanna DIE!"

12. Iago: "don't die" (cus I want to use you for my plot mwuah hahaha) and tells him rubbish like "put money in thy purse" about 50 billion times and other inhumane stuff about killing puppies. (I swear there is something like that in his lines)

13. Rody: "okai...*sniff*" and leaves the scene

14. Iago thinks of an evil plan that the audience shall know about. "I shall abuse the Moor's (Otty) ear about his wifey"

15. Iago gets Cassio drunk! and gets him into a fight with Rody. Otty sees this and is like "dude how immature, your position has been revoked!"

16. Cassio despairs.

17. Iago: "talk to Dess, shes Otty's woman. she can help you"

18.Cassio: yeahman!

Its Photo Gallery day. 3 topics in 1 day.

Okie~ today is just photo gallery day. :D mostly.

I think that if I really bothered to post only like one topic per blog, we'll really just fall behind and never do it. We actually come up with a lot more blog ideas than we ever expect ourselves to.

Though, that's not a bad thing. That way, least we know we're not running out of ideas to entertain our readers now right?

TOPIC 1!!!
Last weekend. meaning on the last day of February when it was yet to be march... Doris and I were traveling around via SD trolley and we went to go get our free yogurt at YogurtLand down in Hazard Center. We got confused and walked way past it, asked for directions in Jack-in-Box and stumbled our way back. Only...to get lost trying to looking for it up and down stairs. Oh useless fools that we are.

It's nice to have relaxed mind and "float along life as jelly fishes" as I like to call it but its not exactly the greatest idea to have two jelly fishes (Doris and I) floating aimlessly with no one to remind us that we're drifting entirely off course. anyways...pictures.


sooo many cups :D


options ftw :D


lmao. it just cracks me up how distressed he looks.
Doris claims it must have been a brain freeze.


TELL me those spoons aren't beautiful


Yogurt flavors: strawberry, Ghirardelli chocolate,
Cheesecake, Lychee tart with pieces of Strawberries,
brownies and cheesecake bits. mmmmm


Doris is totally like : ummmmmm~ yogurt-y goodnesss

Price: excellent. 2-3 bucks for your avg 11-12 oz.

Too bad I realized no cameras were allowed AFTER I took the pictures..... Too bad. :)

And speaking of traveling around. Doris and I noticed that we just simply love giving people nicknames according to our first impression of them. (i.e. shiny red shirt dude)

Later that day, We each got a chicken burrito from Chipotle. God..."delicious" doesn't do that place justice. Scrumptious does a TAD better. somewhat


oh beams of sunlight shall shine forever more on those delectable burritos.

Anyhoo, After we had enough of our giant burritos and stashed the rest away in the handy brown paper bag that it came with to be eaten later, I was holding them and wearing my sun glasses at the same time. (Both Doris and I were wearing glasses because she had just started talking about sunlight causing wrinkles and being the over-paranoid freaks that we are, wore sunglasses out in broad daylight in the sunny afternoon at 3 PM while we strolled the streets of Lemon Grove, Oak Park, etc) My outfit was the final touch to a totally "incognito" look.

don't mind the greatly decorative bag that I had.
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TOPIC 2!!!
Other random Images



Not the most impressive advertisement in the world.
Anime chick. unattractive asian dude. Wackass white bub.
Though....its JUST intriguing and mind boggling enough
to make you click on it....seriously.


Doris sent this to me of herself in her gamer mode.
lmao. see that blissful grin on her face?
its a woman in love--with her video games.


and just about the most ghetto method of using
a (web) camera to tape yourself cooking something.


Karl Lagerfeld. Dude who owns Chanel never fails to amuse me.


I don't even know the name of this masterpiece. but who the
hell cares what its called. It looks fricking mouthwatering


I don't think words are even necessary to describe
the ultimate wackness of this image. tis what I call "wtfs-inducing."

Topic 3!!!
and last but not least to today's gallery show. I cleaned my room about....ohhh, two months ago. I never posted the images but ahhh....a clean room is something I hadn't been able to have for a gooood long time. Now to display the proud work of mine. :D


my bear looks sooo relaxed. :D


The posters and swords sure adds a nice touch.


and images about little more than 1 year ago.

oh lord.


all that trash D:

Since I cleaned it about a month ago, its well on its way to becoming messy again. (oh no!!!)
and uh... god. no one wants to think about it reverting to something like 2 years ago like in the pictures above. (good god) pray for me. (and my mistreated poor room :D )

well I think I've posted a bunch of pictures today already. I'll be back with another blog another day soon.

night to y'all. I still need to study for AP Bio. nuuuuuu~

pssst. btw. Is it me, or the website for TAZO tea is like the effing bomb? :D FLASH!

and last but not least, a random aim convo of the day of ours

Doris (10:25:43 PM):but all humans crave amusement and humor
Me (10:26:10 PM):ahahha. i seriously wonder whats -------'s idea of amusement and "humor"
Doris (10:26:51 PM):torturing babies
Me (10:27:17 PM):destroying ovaries
Me (10:27:26 PM):watching women squeal in terror
Doris (10:29:28 PM):hahahahaha
Doris (10:29:31 PM):so predictable